Life just got more complicated.
-Mama

There is a difference
between seeing someone all day
and spending time with someone.

If they sit at their computer all day long and don't pay attention to you even though you are sitting next to them that doesn't mean you are spending quality time together.

Fucking miss you telling me you loved me

saying you missed me.

You talk about it like it is as simple and emotional as tieing your shoes.

Killing yourself. You say it is all that is left for you to do, but you are wrong.
You can be an adult, be strong and fix the the problems correctly.

Suicide is for those who are selfish and don't want to take the time and effort to fix their life.
I know.
I've tried.

If things are so bad
then fix them!
Stop saying you can't
and start believing in yourself.

Make your life your own
and be your best.

Stop making someone's best your best.

I love you.

Yesterday went by to quickly.
Your tattoo.
That sushi.
My crying.
That vodka.

I wish I could have changed it.
I wish it could have been real.
A real 1 year.

Falling slowly

You still know me

how I used to be

I know this is a new start, but i am so scared.

I am so eager to get into your head again.

Know you again.

be yours again.

Your girl.

Your Deary.

Your Mrs.

Your love.

I want to hear you say I love you again, like I tell you everyday.

I never stopped. 

Never will.

If you only you could hear my thoughts.

I am so terrible at saying what I want to say.

my thoughts fight each other.

Which one to say first before it is forgotten and never said.

Ramble.

It's all I can do.

But when I try,

my mouth tightens and nothing is said.

All I can give is a timid, pathetic stare to the floor.

Your eyes pierce me ,

and I feel them even more when you lift my chin to meet face to face.

I am fear.