If only...

If you only knew how much it tortures me to see you
hear you
in the other room.
Not being able to be with you when you are right there
because you find those things to be more important than me.

I read your old letters today.
Made me cry.
I remember how much you used to love me.
At least you said you did.

I wrote a letter today too.
It was to our baby.
I will always remember how much I love it, and wanted to.
Do you?

fucking fucking games! No me time. fuck you. you get away from this place more than anyone else! Bullshit

damn video games

Why can't he just put down the video game for a bit to just cuddle with me? Every time he is home and has free time he uses it to play a video game. Just fuck... come on.

She forced me to.
The news is out.
Fuck.

Life just got more complicated.
-Mama

There is a difference
between seeing someone all day
and spending time with someone.

If they sit at their computer all day long and don't pay attention to you even though you are sitting next to them that doesn't mean you are spending quality time together.

Fucking miss you telling me you loved me

saying you missed me.

You talk about it like it is as simple and emotional as tieing your shoes.

Killing yourself. You say it is all that is left for you to do, but you are wrong.
You can be an adult, be strong and fix the the problems correctly.

Suicide is for those who are selfish and don't want to take the time and effort to fix their life.
I know.
I've tried.

If things are so bad
then fix them!
Stop saying you can't
and start believing in yourself.

Make your life your own
and be your best.

Stop making someone's best your best.

I love you.