Back from PA.
I feel like I was there for a day, and now that I am back I feel like I have been gone for years.
I am a stranger.
A ghost to this place.
There is no life for me here.
When I am in Pittsburgh, even when I was not with Ken, I felt like I had a life.
I could build myself. A life. A future.
I need to relocate.
If I could, I would runaway with my suitcase and leave this place behind.
Even my family doesn't tie me here.
My strings feel cut.

Tomorrow I head out
I go to PA.
There till the 24th.
So scared to see him. Having to keep myself under control around him scares me.
Can I really do this?
Can I really handle just being....
apart?

Work....
I am a in home care assistant. Just started a couple weeks ago.
Today... such a long day.
Plus a thunder storm/ tornado warning.
Hate storms.

I hate him sometimes. In the end who will be there? Me? Or the people you party with in college for a few hours? The person who promises to love you forever, or college drinking buddies? ... Fuckin hate you sometimes.

Hey there!
So today I was walking to the self check out at Kroger. Just mind'in my own business. *la de da*
And this 14 - 16 year old girl stops in front of me, points at me and says "I love your hair and your style!" XD
Dawwww. I don't mean to come off as egocentric by sharing this experience, but I thought it was adorable.
Made me blush. :)
And something like that happens every time I go into that Kroger. lol
Hope everyone is having an AMAZING day!
<3
Kalekiki

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