The feeling of slick, ink drenched skin...
Fresh ink,
Fresh art.
Pain for art,
or Art for pain?

I am waiting.
Waiting for a call.
For those 3 words.

Last night was another night I tied to forget you.

9
shots
does
the
trick.

fml

My body feels like it is falling apart.

I feel weak.

I feel numb.

My emotions stuck in overdrive.

My mind spinning.

It's like I am watching myself wreck.

Took a personality disorder test.
How fucked up am I really?
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

haha

Sick of body and mind...

I feel sick in to many ways
for to many days
for to many reason
for bad decisions
for no apparent reasons
with a lack of self ambition
with my falsely stated remission.

Retraining your mind.
It's not easy. It's struggles make me feel insane.
My assumption make me feel crazier.
Which way to I push myself?
Down into the hole my dark mind creates...
                                                                 ... Or into a door I have such trouble opening?
Why does my nature...
                                   ... lead me to insanity?

Did some modeling this weekend! Had sooo much fun! :)