My body feels like it is falling apart.

I feel weak.

I feel numb.

My emotions stuck in overdrive.

My mind spinning.

It's like I am watching myself wreck.

Took a personality disorder test.
How fucked up am I really?
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Moderate
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: High
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High
URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

haha

Sick of body and mind...

I feel sick in to many ways
for to many days
for to many reason
for bad decisions
for no apparent reasons
with a lack of self ambition
with my falsely stated remission.

Retraining your mind.
It's not easy. It's struggles make me feel insane.
My assumption make me feel crazier.
Which way to I push myself?
Down into the hole my dark mind creates...
                                                                 ... Or into a door I have such trouble opening?
Why does my nature...
                                   ... lead me to insanity?

Did some modeling this weekend! Had sooo much fun! :)

All blue hair!

Great day.... bad night.
Why does he do this?
Such an...
why do I love the guy so fucking much....

New hair!!

Got a new job that lets me dye my hair however I please! Woot!

I love changing my color.

Some kind of impulse control disorder I have.

The little things in life.
The little moments when you need something to make you smile and you realize...
there is so much around you to appreciate.
Not people,
but life.
Like when you can see the sun in one corner of the sky,
and the moon in the other.
amazing